SO ....

Yesterday I opened up a bit about my raw emotion.

I'm using Lysa Terkurst's books and companion materials "Unglued".

 

My latest materials for Devotion Time.
My latest materials for Devotion Time.

And I'm sitting here feeling a little unglued to tell you the truth.  Last night I read through part of the personal study portion for the first session.  In it I need to keep written observations of my 'unglued' raw emotional moments over the upcoming week.  I must observe what happens before the moment (physical and emotional state), what happened to prompt it and how did I react?

Well - right now I can identify the main trigger.  It's the most obvious one for me.  Hunger.  I really need to watch I eat (and drink ) appropriately.  Since going on the Paleo diet (there's other posts about this - I won't go into it here) this happens BY FAR less than it used to.  My body seems to be able to handle longer periods of time without eating but I've also realized the importance of balancing my proteins, fats and veggies.  And I really MUST eat within an hour of waking in the morning.  Weekends are usually a fail for this.  I should probably keep something in my bedside drawer since I know this pattern.  And once I've gone too long, even after eating it takes awhile for my system to readjust.  So then I really REALLY need to work even harder at keeping my inner raw emotions at bay.

So right now I'm hiding from the world.  Seriously. So I don't make it worse.

Here at my computer.

In the dark room.

Eating.

And sharing with you.

I'm hoping (and praying) the feelings pass and that I can go on to having a better day.

I'll finish the food in my dish, post this for the day and move on.  AFTER I write down my observations.  And AFTER I ponder over some scripture verses that I've been trying to keep as my focus the last few days:

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be always pleasing before you O Lord, my helper and my redeemer. ~ Psalm 18:15

For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.   Isaiah 41:13

and of course - my favorite 'Orthodox' prayer -

Lord, Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me a sinner.