First, though they may not all follow me here...I wish to say a word of thanks to my friends who continue to pray for me...my family and I have been through a very rough month or two and are trying desperatly to regain a sense of peace.
This weekend was very beneficial for many reasons. My husband and I (and small toddler) took my 17 year old daughter to IUP to tour the campus. It seems to be her first choice and she, at this point, wants to major in Criminology. IUP has a great program for that but also has many other wonderful programs should she decide to change her mind at any point. She already knows some people there and they seem to be willing to work well with her dietary needs.
IUP is also where my husband and I met. So this was a great way for he and I to reconnect on many levels. The campus has changed so much but there was also so much that was the same and brought back so many wonderful memories...and memories that were sad but we could laugh at now. We sat on the same bench he broke up with me on....(the first time) and he asked for forgivenss! Our dorms have been torn down but the apartment building I lived in for two years was still there. We even met up with some very dear friends and that time spent with them did us both a world of good. There presence in our lives is very meaningful and I hope we strive to make visits occur more often! My husband and I did have some alone time (well, alone if you count a toddler) to discuss a lot of things we haven't had a chance to and that was very important.
I've contacted a professional homeopath as well. I am going to try homeopathy to treat the depression as well as some anxiety and sleep issues I've been having. Though this weekend was wonderful and I'm feeling a bit lifted from it, I still feel the depression lurking and know it's probably going to return, so I put in a call to make an appointment this morning. Hopefully she'll be able to get me in within a week or so. I've used homeopathy previously with our Naturopathic physician...but due to reasons I posted earlier on, I still can't bring myself to go see him. So he has referred me to a professional homeopath. She is further away (an hour and a half) but is willing to do phone visits occasionally after the first meeting. It will be expensive to get started but I'm certain it will be worth it.
I started reading a book about praying too. Well, It's called 'When God doesn't answer your prayers'. It's not by an orthodox author, but I listened to an interview with him on Ancient Faith Radio and he does have a rather Orthodox viewpoint on many things and quotes a lot of the Church Fathers in the book...so far (the Introduction and part of the first chapter) make a lot of sense to me..so I think this may help. I have not lost my faith... and I truly still believe that the Orthodox Faith is indeed the TRUE Faith... I just have a lot of questions about God's will, tradgedies, and prayer. So I am struggling, but find comfort in being a member of His church and having so many that are lifting me up in prayer.
Of course, I'm still taking the extra supplements and am trying to get into an exercise routine. And I'm trying to get back to our better eating habits. We still eat better, I think, than the average American with all the preservatives and artificial stuff we totally avoid, but I haven't been doing well in preparing the green smoothies, fresh juice and salads with our meals, etc.
Well, it's 12:30 and I've just gotten my morning routine finished...the same morning routine that I usually have done by 8:30...so needless to say I am anxious about all there is left to do today. My little one is napping and I wish I could do the same but I'm going to try to manage getting something done...if only I can figure out what I should do first...what's most important and what I can manage.... wish me luck!