A few of you have asked me over the year--- what are you working on?
Well, uh.... nothing really.
This is it.
The blog has come back to life, And that's where my satisfaction must lie for now. And I'm okay with that....kind of.
Life just got to hectic for awhile. I do too much. I know. And everything I do I attempt with this perfectionist gung-ho enthusiasm worrying that it's not good enough and then I keep adding more things to the list--- just take what I blog about here --- the books, the homeschooling, the food, the natural products, my time to God and my faith, my family, my friends..... all this and more and not in any particular order. But it's a lot. And I got caught up in it all and frazzled by not being able to do it all perfectly and not being able to please everyone (including myself) to the point that I can barely catch a breath. Gee--- is it any wonder I have adrenal fatigue?
So I threw in the towel awhile back on the manuscript writing and the blog. I thought somehow that would make everything else okay. Did it? No, not really. Because, as I'm learning, in my facing that my body is suffering from the stress and other health issues I had over the years, that the thing I need to learn most is just to be at peace with myself and the fact that I am not perfect and I will never be....probably even less so the more I drive myself.
So I've lowered some standards and changing my perception over the course of this year (our style of homeschooling has probably been the most pleasant and biggest change) and I'm slowly adding some things back in that bring me peace and uplift my spirit- namely reading, having fun with Lemongrass Spa and yes, my writing. But for now the writing needs to stay with the blog.
With the blog, it allows me to write about all the things that bring me joy and the things I'm learning about. I'll probably be writing more about my learning and experiences with adrenal fatigue and won't have a lot of time for manuscripts just yet. I do think I might start keeping a notebook again though. To write down ideas as they come to me. I just need to NOT scratch out actual stories, because, for me, that just leads to frustration that I don't have time to keep at it.
But to all my writer friends. I haven't forgotten you. I'd love to hear from you and know what you are up to. And someday- I'll be back in the children's writing scene!